Finally, I passed!

Ladies and gentlemen, I am pleased to announce that there is now 1 more licensed driver on Singapore road with effect from today! Although, she still needs to learn how to park her car without the use of poles and markings on the car.

But then again, considering her quick wit and sharp mind, that should be quite an easy feat for her, heh. Especially, since she has quite an experienced Zizzy driver to teach her. Hah!

My driving instructor was a little reluctant to see me go though, his last looks at me were kinda odd, something like the kind of looks that you will give someone when you are sending him off at airport for a long, long, one way trip to some distant planet…. Hmmm….

Anyway, come’on man! Bring the congratz on!

Good gosh! I still cannot believe it, finally, I finally got my driving license! Yesh! After so long, and so many silly mistakes that caused me so much money.

Of form and love

What do you look for when you are looking for your soul mate? Looks? Wealth? Character? Charm? Personality?

Or its just a matter of seeing and clicking at the right time, right space with the right person?

Maybe perhaps its just a matter of pure chance and coincidence since love is supposed to transcend all.

Things base and vile, holding no quantity,
Love can transpose to form and dignity.
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is wing’d Cupid painted blind.
Nor hath love’s mind of any judgment taste;
Wings and no eyes figure unheedy haste:
And therefore is love said to be a child,
Because in choice he is so oft beguil’d.
As waggish boys in games themselves forswear,
So the boy Love is perjured everywhere.

(A Midsummer’s Night Dream)

I am still left breathless and awed by all that happened and all that is waiting to happen.

Perhaps the thorny jungle of emotions is not that scary after all and its time for me to go deep inside to face another life adventure.

After all, life is a journey, always choosing the safer path can be quite mundane and dull.

21 Guns

The Rose Garden

The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.

The heart really amazes me at times, it has so much nooks and crevices that I do not know how much secrets that it can hold. Feelings are hidden deep inside all these nooks and crevices and they seem to have a habit of jumping out and presenting themselves in the most ironic and unexpected way.

Its just totally mind boggling.

My days pass with much anticipation and mirth and yet I still am trying to grasp the notion of being in love, and more importantly, being loved. Because, I had always believed its  easy to love, hard to be loved and hardest still for these two phenomenons to manifest together as a single entity thereby creating a chemical reaction of fireworks and passion between two individuals.

My body stirs whenever I get touched by him. It seems like my body is too alive and is burning with a fiery urge all the time. All the senses are revitalized and everything seems so much prettier and more colorful. I sought no refuge against all these, choosing instead to embrace everything that I feel, sense, touch and smell.

For the first time in so many months, I feel alive.

Ironically, it took such a long time for me to finally figure out that love does not have to come with loud pomp at first sight. It can also come slowly; a meandering stream of passion.

And in order to understand all the wonders of such, one will have to take the plunge and abandon oneself into this rose garden that we named Love.

Exhilarating vs apprehensive

On a cool and dark Thursday morning, I sat here in my favourite chair, staring at my monitor, wondering what to write here.

So much things happening at such a short time, the feeling is just exhilarating and its making me breathless, in an emotional sort of way. I am still trying to come to terms with what happened and what will happen in the future. Gosh.. On the one hand, scare and apprehensive amd on the other, passionate and most importantly, happy.  The former cos, after such a long time of being independent and free, I now need to constantly think about the consequences of my actions.

And the latter being that I didn’t think I will deserve anything like this at all.

Perhaps I should just stop thinking and go with the flow, which by the way, is really addictive, cos you have no idea where the flow will take you and where is your destination.

I really hope the road down will be less bumpy and more interesting.

I am smiling now

Fate is like a small child who loiters around you silently, not letting you know that he is all along beside you, working his magic on you.

When the moment comes, he will snap his fingers and all the blocks and pieces that he set around you will just fall into places and everything will just be perfect. Thats when you really open your eyes and see what he really wants you to see all along.

And when you really saw it, you will be really caught by surprise but you know that deep down in your heart, all these little pieces really made up the perfect setting for the right moment and that everything that had been, does not really matter anymore.

After which, you will feel really stupid, for not seeing through all these while, for missing all the pieces, with all the little clues just flying straight pass your big dumb numb skull.

The after-taste of knowing that the full circle has been completed is really sweet and fragrant. It lingers like the scent of a rose, in your thoughts and in your mind that you just wanna explode and embrace all that is being given to you, with a fierce passion.

I am smiling, I had been smiling since all the right pieces fell into place.

Everything is perfect and the sun is shining so ever brightly in the blue sky.

Everything is perfect.

All roads lead home?

Fallen Angel

This is so cool.

Black tattoos are nice too, depending on the pictures and the positions. Wonder how long she took to complete the entire picture. Must have hurt like hell though.

Me ish piggy

I have been trying to figure out the Profit & Loss statement for this month since last Friday and my boss was like so nervous about the result.

“Do we have any extra money?” He asked me as I walked out of my room.

“Do I look like a bank to you?” I replied.

He looked at me and said,”Yeah, you look like piggy bank!”  Then he made the hand gesture of dropping coins into a piggy bank.

“You just had to emphasize on the word Piggy right….” I made a face at him and looked at him.

He laughed and said, “Correct mah.. PIGGY bank mah!”

-.-

I wanna cry

I feel as if my heart has been torned into pieces and my insides have been twisted so much that they broke into many pieces.

Who is here to help me?

Who is here to support me now that I need help?

Why? Why did I even allow myself to get into such a situation?

I wanna cry. Its been a long time since I feel like crying.